BINANGONAN, RIZAL, PHILIPPINES. Today, my nerve pain returned. I noticed it because for a number of hours, I was unable to think. I felt like doing nothing. Just like before, my disorientation took me to a full day of rest, tentatively forgetting my working self. When this happens, I blame pain for being cruel.
I hate cruelty. It is a condition of the mind that when executed takes away the integrity of a person. It is dehumanizing. It cripples the heart and buries the little enthusiasm and hope that is left to a suffering being. Yes, I find cruelty in pain as well as pain in cruelty. They go hand in hand. But related they (pain & cruelty) may be, they enhance the meaning of life. And this truism allows me to take courage one day at a time.
